Dancing In The Rain

You know the saying, "when it rains it pours?" Well right now it's raining cats & dogs & I have NO idea how to control it. 



Two weeks ago I was called as Relief Society President of my singles ward. Now I know what you're all thinking, "OMG, congrats," "You're going to do so well!" I've only heard that about 1000000 times.

Thanks...

Let me tell you that was NOT my first thought. All I could think about was how much crazier life would be 

I was pretty confused & upset. "Okay Heavenly Father, what are you thinking?! We are definitely not on the same page. When I said all my friends are dudes I PROMISE I wasn't complaining!"

Now that I'm on week two I thought maybe the dust had settled. No more going through my Relief Society binder at midnight just to learn names. No more four hour Visiting Teaching planning. SWEET. 

But, as I've learned before, being comfortable is not part of this plan. 

Just as I thought my light drizzle was coming to an end, the rain picked up. 

I was running late, I'm exhausted, I couldn't find time for ANYTHING. Oh, & to top it off my car decided it wanted to struggle too. 

My umbrella was not working, I was getting soaked & the rain wasn't stopping. 

Then one night as I was driving home a song came on the radio & it almost brought me to tears. I listened as the chorus played:

"'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise"

Oh trials... such a bittersweet topic. And while I'm over here hiding under my umbrella focusing on the bitter, I forgot to acknowledge how sweet they can be!

I haven't asked for any of these trials!! I didn't even pray for patience!! But God was blessing me with them.

He was blessing me with the opportunity to LOVE the sisters in my ward 100x more than I did before. 

He was blessing me with the opportunity to be social at activities & see my parents a bit more. 

He was blessing me with the ability to be a better older sister. 

He was blessing me with adventures I didn't think I wanted but am so grateful I got. 



He was blessing me with a whole extra month of having the whole family together. 



He was blessing me with the reminder that "even Wonder Woman needs a vacation" (thanks dad ❤️).

He was blessing me with the ability to get a little stronger each day. 

President Uchtdorf said "In reality Heavenly Father is constantly raining blessings upon us. It is our fear, doubt, & sin that, like an umbrella, block these blessings from reaching us."




I realized that I've been so focused on trying to keep dry, that I was missing all the beauty I was being blessed with. I was putting myself in a drought of blessings, forgetting those tiny miracles!!

I hope the time that I'm comfortable never comes. I'm grateful for the rain, tears, & sleepless nights that make me who I am & that continue to soak me in God's love. 


There will be plenty of puddles that will try to get in your way. Put the umbrella down, look up, & don't forget to dance in the rain. 


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