It's Not The End

"Everything has a happy ending. If you're not happy, it's not the end." 

This is what I read the other day as I was eating some Dove chocolate and reading the cute notes on the wrappers.

It is funny to me how impeccable God's timing can be. I have had a rough few weeks and to be completely honest it involved a lot of crying , throwing things (mainly tissues), and asking God not only "why," but for as much strength as He could possibly give me.

It is a joke in the military that when your spouse leaves something bad is bound to happen. I feel like I have spent the last few weeks dealing with trouble after trouble.

It started out simple, I locked my keys inside my car. Luckily I was at work and I was trying to get myself to see that small positive (shout out to AAA). Then there were MULTIPLE spiders. Those who know me, know I do not do spiders. I would rather burn the house down. But I was brave and I used the vacuum and took care of that problem. Next, ants. Lots and lots of ants. Honestly, I still have ants to this day. Luckily the number has gone down but I threw away a lot of food. Oh and just to add insult to injury, I spent my birthday without my husband and without being able to talk to him. I am so grateful that my family just loved me during that time.

Now to a normal human being this may not seem like a big deal but to this girl struggling with adulthood (it's a never ending struggle bus), and missing her husband it was hard. There were many times I thought the struggles coming were going to break my camels back. 

I spent a lot of time on my knees just trying to understand how these struggles and trials were making me a better person. But something I have learned is that God lets you ride the waves before He comes in to sail your ship right by your side.

Now I understand that Him coming to my rescue may not be tomorrow, or next week, or even next year. I may be like Christ's disciples as my storm rages, running to my Savior and asking, "Carest thou not that [I] perish?" 

But it is not the end. I have hope that it is not the end because I am not in my "happy ending." I am in my "confused middle," waiting, praying, and having faith that not only will things get better, but that I will have a JOYFUL ending.

In the end our Savior comes to us in our struggles and says, "Peace, be still." 

Peace in our minds.

Peace in our souls.

Peace in our trials. 

And though I am not someone who can be still longer than a minute, I want to heed His message and have peace so in the end I can have joy. 

"Everyone has a happy ending. If you're not happy, it's not the end."

Hang on. Have peace. The Lord knows you, loves you, and is waiting for the right moment to pop in and calm your storms. Though we can't see Him, He is a prayer away. All we need to do is have faith and we will have that happy ending.